Lately the word confidence has been flooding my mind.
Are you confident, or do you struggle with this? Let me share with you a little bit more about me and how this impacted my life.
My husband and I have been together since we were 15. We bought our first house at 19, married at 20, and had her son at 21. Crazy right!🙃 Neither one of us have college degrees, but my husband has always worked hard to make sure we were always taken care of.
I stayed at home with our son for 6 years. I enjoyed every minute of it and wouldn’t have traded it for the world! As the years went on though, I started to feel lost. Lost as in, what is my purpose in this life. I know I have the heart that wants to help everyone, but what? Surely, there is more for me right? Not that staying home with my son was a bad thing, please don’t take that out of context. I just felt like something was missing.
I guess you can say I’ve always been the entreprenuer type. I wanted to bring in extra income for our family too, so I decided to open up an Etsy shop. I learned how to sew and sold items all throughout the world. It was pretty fun, yet very time consuming. So of course that didn’t last too long.It did however work great in my circumstances because I didn’t have to talk to people and I was still in the comfort of my own home! Score! Still something was missing.
I remember my husband coming home one evening from work and sitting me down on the couch. He looked at me and said, “Honey, I need your help. I need you to get a job.” (Insert overly emotional crying mama here). Yep, that was me! I was crying because I was scared! I was nervous! I mean, I had a right to feel that way. I stayed home for 6 years and I have no college degree. I felt unworthy and stupid. The thoughts that were going through my head. obviously, confidence was not in my vocabulary!
I now find myself with a resume in hand, thanks to my hubby, standing in front of two large doors of a private school. I heard they were looking for a office manager so here I stand. Honestly, I didn’t want to be here. I wanted to be at home where I was comfortable, but I had to put on my big girl panties and do it! As I handed the resume to the lady up front, she instantly said, “Can you stay for an interview?”…. Uhhhhhh…..uhhhh, “Sure”. (Now we can insert that holy crap what am I doing face). I immediately went outside for a second and prayed like my life was depending on it. I asked God to give me the confidence I needed to rock this interview. I’m surley not qualified and I have zero background in this field. Lord, help me!!!
“Ashley, come in we’re ready for you.” Here goes nothing! Ten minutes later I walked out of that interview with my head held high, posture on point, and totally NAILED IT! I’m so getting this job! I claimed it at that very moment!
The next day I was in my bathroom putting on my makeup and worshiping the Lord. My phone rang. This is it, the moment I was waiting for. “Ashley we wanted to let you know that you don’t have the experience that we are looking for and honestly you are not qualified for this position but after looking over a hundred applications and having you come in for an interview we fell in love with your personality and passion. We would love to offer you the job as the office manager at our school as we know you would be trainable and be such a wonderful asset to our school!” WHAT THE WHAT!!! YES! THANK YOU JESUS!!
At this point all my eye make-up was smeared all over my face. You ladies know what I’m talking about. When you look in the mirror and scare yourself half to death! Lol
I couldn’t wait to call Chris! Immediately he answered the phone and I told him I got the job. I felt so so good inside. Like I was worth it, well because I was! He came home that day with the biggest bouquet of flowers and we celebrated over dinner. This was the baby steps of building my confidence. I worked at my son’s private school for 2 years and enjoy the school, staff, and of course all the kids. God put me here for a reason, and that was the start to where my future is now.
My husband and I now work from home or anywhere for that matter. We are in the direct sales industry marketing for a health and wellness company. To say it’s changed my life/our lives is just the beginning. You know, I sit back and think of this journey that we have been on. Where we started and where we are now. God is definitely showing us the paths to take that help build who we are today. Not all good paths by the way! He has and is still building who we are everyday. I can confidently say that since I’ve been in direct sales, God has taught me how to be confident, and most importantly how he wants me to share my confidence with you. Unfortunately, our society today tells us that we can’t, even our closest friends and family. I’m here to tell you this.
I went from staying at home everyday with no confidence or belief in myself, to speaking to people on a daily basis. Speaking in front of crowds up to 500 people! If I can do it, you can do it! Heck, I even started this blog! Never would I’ve thought this was the path God was leading me on. Be confident in whatever you do! Hold your head high and tell yourself that you can achieve anything you want! Tell others the same thing! Let’s start a movement of uplifting others and saying,“YOU ARE WORTH IT!”
Psalm 37:4 says, ” delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and petitions of your heart.
God wants to see that dream come alive. He wants to give you your hearts desire filled with his abundant goodness and favor!- Joel Osteen
Please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org I would love to help you!
YOU ARE WORTH IT